4 December Journal

Well Good Sunday Morning Folks. Todays post is brought to you by a cute coffee cup adorned with Santa Claus, Full of some of the strongest coffee i have made is a good while.

I am Watching the news. So morbid a start to a dreary sunday. After a work week that is best forgotten. That Coffee cup was goven to me by work for christmas about 3 years ago. I cannot stand the fellow that gave it out but he paid for it with company funds and That made me feel a bit better about the company at that time. As you can see in the pic, My nails need a tending to pretty bad. I need to go find some polish that will match my toes. That color is pretty and Very Christmasy. 

Speaking of Nails, I have had that polish on since Thanksgiving, Going to work with it on has not detered anyone or how they feel about me. At least to my face.Yesterday I went to work, Saturday in female mode. Well I do that every day. What i mean is full make up on. Girl pants, and a t-shirt that was not warm enough for me. No one said a word. I had alreaady told everyone in tha shop, and they know I am transitioning. I also have told them That come New years I will be COming to work enfem most everyday. I have started that regime of adding this that and the other to my look every day. SOme is noticable others not that much. None of the operations folks was in yesterday, just maintenance. SO i didnt have to justify anything. I felt great about doing just that, going in enfem.

Tuesday is still a go with a friend to escort me to the court house and help me get my name changed at the court house, circuit court. Then we will head to the DL Office to adjust that and then I will probably go alone to Social Security office provided that everything has gone smoothly up to that point. Otherwise I will have to take another day off for that. THen I can turn in the paperwork to my company and go to the bank and doctor and therapist and dentist and the car loan and on and on and on and on and on……….. I am so ready to do all this.I am so excited I can hardly contain it and its keeping me up at night the nightmare is going to be the DL office I believe.

We have had some discussions on FB about de transitioning. Some folks are doing just that. WHY? I am not going to go back to male me at all. Trump isnt going to intimidate me. Matter of fact COngress has to agree on everything too. Ad in the lobbiests and what not all over the country and we will most likely be fine. We are gettin all bent out of shape over stuff that hasnt happened and yet there is so much more out President elect will need to deal with than the issues of the LGBT Community. Many of us are allowing ourselves to be intimidated by a clown. I for one spent years and years being intimidated. Letting it affect me and stopping me from transitioning for better than 30 years. As 2016 Comes to a close in about 20 some odd days, I will always remember this year as the year of my own personal freedom. It came with issues, to be dealt with. Those issues that were repressed for decades and finally had to be addressed before the issues destroy me. And close to that destruction I was as I found out at the doctors office 6.5 months ago. With elevated BP and cholestoral, along with stress, and other mental issues, I was on the brink of having a heart attack and possibly not survining it. I am tranistioning and am happy finally in my life. I am not going to be intimidated back into the closet by any single person regardless of their position in the world theatre. As I complete, hopefully, the legal side of my transition, I wll see that 2017 comes with a fun happy time. I will see that 2017 is more wonderful with myself and life and especially my wife than any other year we have had together. Come what may, we will enjoy eachother and have fun like we never had before. We have had a rough year of acceptance and tolerance. We will not let this happen no more. We do know that we will have downs in life. However, we will not allow those to destroy us life we nearly did. I know I surely will not. 

We went out last night, even though i was flat worn out. WE went to LBOE here in memphis. Its short for Last Burger On Earth. It finally reopened and we attended last noght I got the Burger of the Day. BOTD LOL. it was good but not what i rememebered. Then we went bowling, I sucked. Well If had I not been so worn out I may have done better. Mistress beat me 2 games to one. And another issue, some folks, Kids, came to play next to us with the worst bowling lane ettiquite I have ever seen. I am no pro bowler or even on a league, but i do know not to bowl while the folks on either side are throwing thier ball. These kids were all over our lane while we tried to bowl and bowled while we were bowling too. throwing off my game on top my my fatigue. Not that i have much of a game. We also got our shoes, I asked for a twelve, the lady brought me an 11, then I remembered a ladies twelve is a mans eleven, i was ecstatic about. Even the waitress at the restaraunt earlier had called us both ladies. I have to guess that my look is getting much better and passable, despite my hieght. Even the McDonalds lady called me Ma’am yesterday morning. I had went and bought some Sausage egg and cheese biscuits, and no one gave me a second look. Well, Aside from that fact I am an Amazon woman. HEHEHE!

Well people, I love chatting sometimes but I must put this post to an end. I have things to do and need to get back on track I leave you with a parting pick from last sunday. Hope you all have a great day! 

Love Candi

4 Comments Add yours

  1. georgiakevin says:

    Miss Candicejune i absolute love this post! i find myself soo thrilled for you. You are such a brave girl. You are the kind of girl would make a wonderful friend, someone who you could have fun visiting with and shopping with.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. candicejune says:

      Well, ya know i try try be an up beat kind of person. And well, just be me.

      Liked by 1 person

      1. georgiakevin says:

        You are an upbeat person and you are a pretty wonderful you if you ask me.

        Liked by 1 person

      2. candicejune says:

        Thanks very much. If i wasn’t so tired from working all thee time

        Liked by 1 person

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