Good evening folks, yes, I am writing an evening post. The friday evening post to be exact. lol
After reading and exeriencing some things in the last week or so, I have to ask and attempt to answer these questions;
- Do we as a transperson, be it male or female, make others uncomfortable?
- Do we make our selves uncomfortable?
- Are Cis-folks making us uncomfortable?
- or lastly Are Cis folks making them selves uncomfortable?
I think the real answer, if you look deep enough, is all of the above. I know i didnt ask to be this way. I would love nothing more to hit the start over button and be “right”. Whether a male or female, though in my current state preferably female, I would love to be what i am in the “box” of normalcy. Anyway i am not “normal” and I enjoy life now that I am no longer fighting myself. We dont make them uncomfortable in my opinion, they are already uncomfortable. Just like us, we have been uncomfortable with ourselves and we finally decided not to “fight” anymore. So are they uncomfy or jealous. Deep rooted into some beliefs that are Physically correct yet the mind and spirit are things only the holder of such truly knows. Anyhow I do know that my own deamons have crept up on me a time or two in the last couple of months. This past weekend was the most recent. If you remember, the restaraunt issue i wrote about, I wonder who was truly uncomfortable? I was and still am comfy with my self. I did not like being stared at like a freak show though. I know for a fact, from my own self observations, and others, that i am no freak show. The world just doesnt know how to deal with a happy person i guess.
So it poses the real last question, Should we change for others or be ourselves? I believe now in being myself. Happy, Free, and unconfined. Its like this folks, If you dont like church, Dont go. If you dont like sex movies, dont watch them. If you dont like steak, dont eat it. If you dont like a trans person, well, leave and stop staring. we arent hurting you and you us, provided you dont do what you hate, which is look at us.
Maybe this will help some folks get over the phobia of being themselves. One last little piece though, we arent out to start trouble. we just wanna blend in and be one of the girls. WE dont want to go do 90% of the things people are claiming we are doing. The ones that are, well most likely are not a trans person.