Caterpillar

We all know about the little bug called a Caterpillar. They change into beautiful butterflies. Could this be used to describe a person who is transgender?  Caterpillars are in a since, ugly. If to no one but themselves. They do morph into something beautiful. Though I’m not sure what I’m trying get at here, bare…

29 July journal

Good morning folks, it’s Friday. Another day closer to the weekend. I’ve had short night it seems. Still worn out. Waking up at three forty five kinda stinks. But I did get to watch Gomer Pyle on the television. Caught the weather after all the death and destruction the news has to report.  We sat…

28 July journal

Good morning every one. It’s Thursday. I’m flat worn out, twelve hours at work and it Doesnt look like it’s going to end anytime soon. It’s been raining all night, according to the weatherman. And it’s still humid as hell outside.  I did manage some sleep. All night minus going potty once. My sleep will…

What is love

What is love, supposedly unconditional. Thin or thick times, the love ofa person towards another is always there. So I thought. One person may continue to hold that love while another loses it for one reason or other. It’s rather sad honestly.  But since I started this post this morning and have been so very…

Future

As I prepare go to work, stomach in knots, I help think. About the failure I’ve become, the transition and what damage it’s done. My third marriage failed due to this “demon” inside. Do I continue, or not is the question. This side of me has haunted and destroyed lives, loves, friendships, and could cause…

Lost

I’m not really sure what I’m too do anymore. It’s almost two in the morning. My love is leaving, my heart ripped out. My sternum aching and direction lost. Tears like the rain in a thunderstorm. The moon is half full and I’m no where close to that anymore. So it seems right now.  It’s…

27 July journal

Good morning to everyone. It’s not so much so for myself. I’m not sure what to do or who and where to turn. The great spirit is a good place to start. I’m really sad right now.  It become a reality to my wife, that I’m transitioning. It’s become something she cannot accept at this…

26 July journal

Good morning folks, Monday isa memory and now it’s tuesday. I think it is anyway. Mistress andi both have a similar issue, we are working to long. I did like 10.5 hours yesterday. Looks like it’s not going to end. Mistress job also has her working late. She hasn’t been getting off until late after…

25 July journal

Monday, Monday, I hope it’s a great day. the weather man has lower temps for us. Yay!  Big shots from corp are to be in town this week. I’ve got house keeping to do at work this morning. And I really don’t have much to talk on today. I guess I’m still sleeping. Not that…

Kidding right?

Today on the way to the grocery, we drove by a church. Cops were at one entrance directing people entering. Lights flashing and all that. The other entrance blocked by three vehicles. one marked two SUV undercover units. Three cops at this entrance stood aroubd. Lights flashing as well. I was thinking that wasa bit…

23 July journal. 

Well it’s Saturday night folks. Not sure what im doing tonight. Think I’m going to see friend perform in a drag show. Not that it’s her first rodeo in drag. But it’s going to help me break this rut and get work off my mind. Not that I’ve thought about it much honestly.  Yesterday blew…

22 July journal

Good morning Americans, it’s Friday. Drink lots of water and other replenishing fluids if your in the heat areas. The temps are boiling, steaming, and who knows what.  It’s been a week let me tell ya. And then I wake up at 350 this morning. I guess that’s fine since I’m going to have to…